the road to weaning.

Max will be ONE next week. I know every mom says this but really where did the time go!? When Calvin was a little nursling I remember looking forward to his 1st birthday so much because it was always my goal to nurse him for a year. Well once his first birthday rolled on I was not ready to wean like I had anticipated. I had grown attached to our little nursing routine and loved the downtime with him. On his first birthday we went from 5 nursing sessions a day to just morning and evening. I would pump once or twice during the day so that I wouldn't get mastitis or anything and Calvin took the road to weaning just fine. Once he was 15 months old I cut out the morning nursing session and then at 17 months we dropped the evening one.

If he ever woke at night I would change his diaper and offer a sippy cup of water. I am always thirsty at night and I always figured he woke because he was thirsty (although maybe only I was). Calvin would take milk from a cup sometimes but for the most part he just stuck to solids and never wanted any milk which was no surprise since he hated bottles. 

Max is similar to Calvin and still rejects pumped milk from a bottle. He has never been a lover of nursing. He is a quick eater and wants to move on to the next thing. I am not sure if we will have anymore biological children again so I often find myself sad at the idea of weaning. There is no real other reason as to why I like to wean at a year other than I want to wear normal bras again, want to sleep on my tummy without leaking, and want to feel 100% back to myself. I don't think it is selfish to want these things since I spent a year sharing my body with little Max. I am so thankful that God allowed me to be able to nurse both my boys and will look back on these times with fond memories.

My plan is to go down to just morning and evening nursing with Max. The poor guy doesn't see it coming, but I am at peace with my decision and hope he takes the transition well. He is a healthy little guy and the time would inevitably come for me to stop breastfeeding him. It is still up in the air as to when we will be completely done nursing but since I am a woman of habit I am sure it will be similar to my timeline with Calvin. 

My last stash of milk has been donated to a friend and soon my pump will be packed away along with my nursing bras. My birthday is in January and I see a trip to VS for some bras in my future. I may have scars on my breasts and if I look in the mirror I do not recognize my body but these are good signs and reminders of the body God gave me to help birth and nourish my two boys.

Weaning is definitely a journey for both mom and baby. Max will most likely never remember me nursing him in a few months when we are totally finished, but I will always remember our special bond. Whether you breastfed for one day or for a year like me you can probably understand what I am going through. Every milestone your baby goes through is a reminder of how fast time goes when you are a mom. 

My Max will no longer be a baby but will be a toddler on Black Friday. He may not get mom's milk but he will surely enjoy a plate full of turkey, carrots, stuffing, cake, and his first slice of apple pie. 

When did you wean your baby? Did you have a hard time letting go? How did you go about cutting out sessions, abruptly or slowly? Any advice?

Copying big brother by going on the slide the wrong way.

Copying big brother by going on the slide the wrong way.

Got a picture of some of Max's first steps.

Got a picture of some of Max's first steps.

Sharing some slobbery snacks with me at the pediatricians office

Sharing some slobbery snacks with me at the pediatricians office

Swinging on Halloween at a Trunk or Treat, not wearing a costume because it was another hot night in San Diego.

Swinging on Halloween at a Trunk or Treat, not wearing a costume because it was another hot night in San Diego.

Beefy ribs or milk? 

Beefy ribs or milk?