the disappointments and joys of sickness.

When colds and illnesses hit our home it usually hits our boys hard and fast. Calvin has chronic asthma and the smallest illness causes him to have some serious breathing problems throughout the day and especially at night. Max is a huge gagger in general, but throw in a cold and teething on top of it and it is pure madness in our home! He nurses before bed and will cough and vomit on repeat all weekend long. He has probably had two bites of food in the past three days and although he is hydrated, it is all over his face that he is sick. As parents it's the hardest thing to watch your kids suffer and I would do anything to take their pain and discomfort away. So inevitably I got sick shortly after the boys. This past Sunday night was like having two newborns all over again.

But God in His kindness was still merciful to us through our sickness. Nick and I got to celebrate a little Valentine's Day day date in Rancho Santa Fe on Saturday morning. We drove with the sunroof open and had big cups of coffee, quiche, and shared the world's best cinnamon roll. I surprised him with the date when we woke up and told him my mom would watch the boys while we enjoyed a kid-free morning. In typical parent fashion, we ran some quick errands before heading home to our sick little ones. On Sunday we stayed home from church so that we wouldn't further spread this bad cold and we went on a walk, gardened, and rested. 

Monday morning we were planning on taking the boys to their first visit to Sea World. No one in the house had slept the night before and we were going to cancel. Thankfully Nick convinced us to just go and make the most of it. I did not go with Calvin for his first trip to Disneyland, Legoland, or many other fun places so it was so important for me to see his little face light up at the sight of seeing Shamu. Calvin was getting better by this point so I put Max in my Tula and we headed out with my mom, Nick, and my sister. I am so thankful to have my family always willing to jump in and help me in any way possible. Sometimes I don't feel like a real mom because I always have so much help, but I am then reminded that accepting help and love from others is a blessing and not something to be ashamed about. Max was definitely not himself, but being together doing some things out of the ordinary was just what the doctor ordered.

My boys and I do not deal well with disappointments and we had our fair share of them over these past few days, but we are learning to cope with the fact that we cannot control every aspect of our lives. We missed a park date, a Valentine's party, a birthday party, church, swim, and a haircut. I am slowly learning not to get the kids excited for something until we are literally out the door and on our way or someone is about to ring the doorbell. They are just like me and love people and adventure so if I can avoid some level of disappointment I will because I know the feeling firsthand. 

Our days this week were filled with tissues, tears, water, and coughs but I am praying this week will be one filled with health and energetic boys. The silver lining of sickness this week was learning to rely on God and to be thankful during both the good and the bad. I am thankful the boys just have a bad cold and that they will be better soon, thankful for a loving family, and thankful for friends who encourage me when times are rough. Also, a shout out to Nick's friend from college, Katey, who is a dolphin trainer at Sea World. She and her co-workers gave us a memorable behind the scenes meet and greet of some amazing dolphins and pilot whales. I now have a new appreciation for the behind the scenes work and care of all the animals there.

Thyme in the Ranch in Rancho Santa Fe, the cutest little cafe ever.

Thyme in the Ranch in Rancho Santa Fe, the cutest little cafe ever.

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He was mesmerized and Max was too after a few minutes.

He was mesmerized and Max was too after a few minutes.

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